The fourth Love

5/8/2012 1.47am
Sunday
Actually, i should write this post in early time...
It is because not happen in today...but...i should not give a hope to myself to continue this relationship back...
So...I must to CHEER UP ya...^^
As past post i post b4....have to write how start this relationship and how it end...=)
This story should start when i come back from Genting with my buddy...
Rmb that day i was sick like hell...voice also lost d....
that day...ah ming pull me go yum cha...and at this pull...i know few of new fren...
one of them is she...rmb on that day...she ffk she fren...
and ah ming go she home pull her out...and we meet at 德记炒粉...
She name Karena Ng...chinese name and full name dun write la...she not so like her name...
but i feel not bad...just a nick name make she not like her own name jor... swt
this is the way how i know she....
after that day... i also not contact so close d...
but dun know when start...
we start close and chat by facebook...talkbox...and line...and i date her watch 结婚的那件事...
that time i still treat her as my friend...no think others...
until one day...when we are chatting...
she write a word to me that...如果是三四年前的我，我几经向你表白了...
that time i really stun ler....suddenly got a girl talk like this to me...
but that time i really not ready for start a relationship...then i change other topic...
and i think it myself...how and what to do...?? do i got feel on her??
that time i start to pay attention on her...好感 is got...but not love ma...
and we keep contact...slow slow d...i start got love feel on her....
and i date her and fren to genting trip...
In genting....A kiss....start our relationship....
at this relationship...not easy...or can say our timing is not good ba...
rmb that am am start...i have to go china for 10 day...
and i got something place i not happy with it...so have give a 10 day she settle some problem...
in this 10 day...i wish i can connect to internet...to chat with her..and tell her i miss u...but hor..that up dup china...no wifi 1...really suck lor....and still good at the last day hotel there got...haiz...but also too late jor la...tml i also back malaysia jor...
So fast 10 days is pass...
and i waiting her answer...is it settle...but she tell me she is not settle it yt...
haiz...that time i really not syok for it...and that time...i wish she not settle it...
so i can quit this relation...no so deep love in that time ma...
but i din do it...cos i wish to give a chance to myself to continue for this...
so...like that tor tor la la gam....wait her settle lor....
the most important to make this relationship going down is me....
i have study at kl...and the jealous attitude....
the distance of us is far...and the timing not ngam ba...
when i back ipoh...she not free...
when i din back ipoh....she is free...
funny right??
Ipoh and KL is not far only...
but...expensive....once time back RM50 gone...
I know my account...like that every week back...i totally hard to survive in KL...
everyday eat roti meh? i so 喂食...haha...and every time back ipoh i also dun know where money fly...like use water gam...haiz....i think i know where la...BEER...!!! haiz...
Bad attitude i got it...= ="
when she need me...i at kl...when i need she....she at ipoh...
This is one of reason...the second reason i think is i jealous...
i know i am not a generous person...mayb for fren will bit ba...but...for gf...
i think i am small gas lor....dun know why...this is human character ba...
i jealous for she date a guys yum cha..not..is yum beer..= ="
Boy ler...is a small gas animal ler....and this case...i think i power to jealous for it gua...
and jealous for she sister wedding and after sister wedding lor...= ="
That time she sister wedding...she no invite me... i understand ger...but..
at the same time she told me she phone is sot jor...
so this few few few and few day no contact me...= ="
haiz...but hor...she can date her fren badminton d wor..geng ler....= ="
haha...suan la...write so detail tok pi meh....=)
the result show it i am jealous king lor....xD
the thrid or fourth reason i dun know also...this i think not i answer ba....need she only can answer for it lor...i think hor....one of reason she will say is i am a BAD guys....
wakakkaka....hahaha....
erm....so....one day....i drink a lot...and the mind think is negative thing....so...
my emotion ask me dun continue for this relationship....so that day...i write a msg to say break....
After wake up that day o...got regret lor....lolx....hahaha....why need write like those hurt thing to a girl...even need break also cnt write so hurt she ger word ma...haiz...regret write too hurt to she...
After that day....start cnt keep chat with her lur....haiz to 斩栏ma...= =
not easy pass ler...have to find other thing to make self no so concentrate for she...
but at that time hor...the computer break down....die jor...omg....sei la...more hard to pass...= =
only can go swimming...keep fit..!!xD
until last yesterday...go find her...only know that i cnt put down all thing...
haiz...= ="
and just now...i asked a question...she answer me...i only know i cnt continue look backward...
she teach me look forward...."look forward..get a better for your lost"
this word make me wake up....she also look forward d....so Me also cnt stay at past memory...
so..write this blog...is remind myself...SHE was a PAST...look forward ba... ^^
thank her let me grow up a little bit ba...hahaa......=)
ok la...3.33 d...write jor 2 hrs.. = ="
Good night